Old days when I was in a relationship..

Before he came, I was lost. I needed someone to find me, someone to rescue me, someone to stand by my side. And then, HE came along.He wasn’t like anybody else I knew, he treated me differently, he made me feel sho special that I thought nobody else was around me that time, he knew whenever I was sad; and he knew how to put a smile on my face. He knew whenever I was happy; and he would just laughed with me all day, all night. He knew me better than I knew me. He made me fall for him, by just being him. I go to sleep at night hoping and wishing that nothing and no one would ever break us apart someday. Although I know that nobody would dare to try… because such love that cannot be explained by words will find nothing that could make it fade away, nothing that could ever make it end, and absolutely nothing that can stand in its way. After all.. I wish I could fine one like him. I never wanted other man to be like him. 

AZMI BIN MD JAN

Assalamualaikum uols. Tonight.. this blog , this special post is for someone who has sacrifice his life for me. when i was in trouble , he is the one who will lend his ears for me. sitting besides me and hear all my probs. along kadang2 banyak jugak tipu ayah. ayah called , ''dah solat Zohor belum? kenapa macam nangis je bunyi ni?'' , and i ll answer '' oh , ayah along sakit tekak. and nak solat lah ni. realitynya aku tengah dok tengok cerita hindustan , mata bengkak melayan perasan. sorry yah , along tak buat lagi.

so , ayah.. thanks cus everyday call along 5 or 6 times and always worry about what i do every single thing. sometimes , ayah you are way too caring. but that is how you are supposed to be kan. im glad that you are my dad. somehow , you are willing to give everything i need whenever how hard the situation is. and yah , thanks jugak sebab every 4days topupkan along seploh linggit. im such a spoiled brat. i know. ayah , thanks for all the facilities you have provided. baju , dress , kurung , jeans , makeups and bla bla

tapi kan yah. you are the best banker in the world. and yah nak tahu tak , along paling sayang ayah time ayah bank in duit. hikshiks. eh no lah , i still lebiu k. hee. and for this entry too , i wanna wish happy birthday my love. semoga Allah panjangkan umur ayah and murahkan rezeki ayah. nanti senang sikit along minta duit ayah bagi duit poket lebih hihihi. semoga along jadi anak ayah sampai bila2. hubungan anak beranak ni takkan putus sehinggalah along takde dekat dunia ni k yah? :') semoga ayah nampak muda and sexayyy :p and kekal family bond ni sampai hari kiamat. yah , i love you. thanks for all the advices.

AZMI BIN MD JAN 
- I love you way too much. :') 

Ciri ciri lelaki idaman Madam Azie

Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarokatuh. good-early-morning. hello. hihi. hai future suami , panjang tak salam saya? hehe. well , actually at this time 1.50am , i cant sleep. my sleep schedule was fucked up since my hols sem break started. hehe. future suami , i tak mencarutlah. i express my perasaan aje. hikhok. this is due to the late woke up this evening. Ite bukan tak solat subuh ah , ite hmm err ite hmm. bendera jepun. period lah itu pun tak faham? haish. okay2 stop nagging azie. boringgg. 

YOU SEE MY TITLE POST THERE? 

SEE NOT?

NO SEE?

WHAT?

Okay , semorang ada ciri ciri lelaki idaman. konon lahai kann. lepastuh time korang skolah dulu , mesti korang buat satu group kan? time rehat kan? lepastuh nanti yang sorang ni cakap 'suami aku nanti kaya macam Donald Trump. yang sorang kawan korang pulak nak lelaki badan macam 'The Rock WWE' tu. macam2 kan. but.. hihihih. i have my own prince charming too. heh heh heh heh. jeng jeng..

1. He must know how to speak and very fluent in English!

• I bukan nak paksa you cakap English sayang , nanti anak2 kita dah besar. dia pandai communicate dengan Bill Gates. nanti anak2 kita takdelah bodoh sangat macam Mr Bean tu. since nowadays, English is way too important eventhough the employer pun nak interview their employees in English. heh. 

2. He must be tall.

• I suka yang tinggi tinggi sebab apa tahu? tahu ke tak? sebab i nak kiss dia nanti i nak angkat kaki i sebelah hihi. joke joke. sebab i pun tinggi. so sukahati i lah nak laki tinggi jugak kan. 

3. He must at least know how to cook any basic cuisines. 

• Kenapa i cakap macam ni pulak? memanglah lelaki tak dilahirkan memasak kejadah bingai. korang reti buat anak je kan? hihihi jangan marah. i cakap je. okay let say if i pregnant kan , only you and me tinggal dekat house tu , kalau i nak makan siapa nak masak untuk i. bibik yang kita order dekat Indon lambat lagi sampai. haa , at least you know how to cook breakfast and at least masak porridge. susah ke? tak susah kut. i pandai masak untuk you , bagi you makan pagi petang siang malam. memanglah kewajipan i , tapi tak salah you belajar basic masak kan? 

4. He must be patient dho!

• To be honest, im a harsh person. i speak very loud and rude to the person that i loved. i dont know why. especially when it comes to my pms , i hardly stay in calm or peace. that is why tak ada yang tahan dengan i. i know. i know. i panas baran tapi kan future suami , if you know how to use your tactic dengan i , i ll play my role very nice dengan you. hihi :p yeah , siapa lah nak tahan kalau perempuan maki maki marah macam perempuan sawan babi mcm azie azlina  ni. oh btw my future husband , i wish you could bear with me forever hereafter :') 

5. He romantic.

• Perempuan ni dia suka benda sweet sweet , present ke , flower ke ,  romance romen , surprise sampai dia dapat heart attack. tapi paling penting , makanan ke *azieazlina lah tu . macam itu jugaklah i. hikhok *sambil korek hidung. yeah , i admit i suka lelaki romantic. especially when he hold my hands and say , ajie ajlina I LOVE YOU in a manner way. which means how he express his feelings towards me. 

6. He must be honest.

• Bukan future husband pun kena honest. i pun sama. kalau i cakap i nak berak , i kenalah  pergi tandas. takkan zoukout pulak kut. hihihi. honest ni semua lelaki2 kena ada. sebab nanti kalau dah kahwin , honest ni penting untuk kita kekalkan marriage kita sehingga hereafter. kalau tak , syaitan dan iblis2 suka tepuk tangan macam monyet mendapat bunganya apabila sesebuah hubungan itu bercerai. kuliah subuh lah pulak weh. macam Ustazah Masyitah dah aku yg dalam tv3 tu. next,

7. He must have a career.

• Kalau abang nak tijah , abang kena ada kerja tetap. kalau tak , macam mana tijah nak kahwin dengan abang? cuba abang cakap. apa?! abang boleh bagi tijah makan? makan apa bang? tijah taknak makan pasir dengan kicap and sambal belacan seminggu lepas yang jiran kita bagi. dang! hihi. eh lelebih pulak kau azie. aku lempang guna kaki kau kang. well , semua perempuan sekrang pandang lelaki yang bekerja. so do i. if not , you cant survive. nowadays , lot of things needs money! money is the root of evil. im not a materialistic but this is how ladies will act and think about their future husband. okay bang? :) then,

8. He knows how to create jokes.

• sebab saya ni seorang yang periang , penyengih , dan ganas macam atlet muay thai tu , so saya nak awak tu klakor sikit. tak ada lah saya ni bosan melihat misai garang awak tu. hihihi. well , everybody akan agree if bf ke future husband uols tu pelawok. he can create something yang buat i tak lupa moments tu. sebab that is sometimes a key to our happiness. kan sayang? hehe. 

9. He punya rambut mesti pendek and kemas.

• Hal ini kerana , rambut gua dah panjang macam Pontianak dalam citer Twilight tu. *eh ada ke? hehe. tengok pulak rambut lu macam sarang tebuan alah segan gua nak cakap nama retis ni. siapa eh nama dia? alaa , hangpa pun taktahu? haish. Alleycats tu. Trima kaseyyyyyyyy! sumpah gua serabut baq hang. cuba rambut tu pendek , kemas , dan rapi macam bapak gua. sejuk sikit mata gua ni pandang. hihihi. asal? bf uols rambut panjang style? ah itu uols punya pasal ah. hehe.

10. He ada rupa manusia

• Ye. ye. ye. Allah tu menciptakan manusia tu sebaik baik kejadian alam. saya tahu. tapi saya bukan memilih sangat pun. saya tak kisah lah kalau muka awak tu ada jerawat sikit ke , gelap sikit ke , kalau putih macam mat salleh alhamdulillah rezeki. hihi. cuma ada lah rupa sikit. taknaklah yang serabais macam orang lifeless kan. dressing pun kena lah smart. kemas. bersih. spenda hangpa pun kalau tak cuci aku reject. macam aku taktauuu. aku banyak stalker hangpa taktauuu.

Lastly.. bros and babes.. ladies and gentleman.. man and woman.. mak and bapak.. 

Lelaki yang i nak sangat sangat ialah lelaki yang boleh guide i ke jalan yang benar. i tak kisahlah you sebaya ke atau tua sikit dari i. but mom once ada jugak adviced , nak cari lelaki tu biarlah yang tua sikit. tapi bukan Dato'2. i nak you beriman , pandai baca al-Quran sebab nanti siapa nak ajar anak2 i mengaji? siapa nak azan time anak i baru lahir nanti? *berangan kau jemah. i mean here , you can accept me for who i am. you can guide me to the right path. my heaven is beneath your feet, abang. eysehman. hehe. you will non stop supporting me. sayangi mak apak i. adik beradik i. tapi kan bang , duit shopping i jangan lupa bagi okay? itu je boleh buat mood i baik :p

Blog , so sorry. My bed is seducing me. She gets jealous when i spend time dengan you too much. I should hit the sack now babes and dudes. me and my Angah will be going to Ipoh tommrw morning. She wants to donate her money to the malls. Goodnight people! <3

 

You know what hurts the most?

Reminiscing how we were from the beginning, how it all changed and how we got to this point. Isn’t it funny how we were two people that were so sprung for each other, we were full of many smiles, laughs and butterflies. Then all of a sudden everything changed, because of those words and the worst part is when you can't handle me when Im having my pms and we reached this point where we can’t even last a day without fighting and arguing, we can’t even have a decent phone call without one of us hanging up. So one question, when did our smiles, laughs and butterflies turn into fights, arguments and hatred for one another? Im sorry for being an idiot. Im sorry for lacking the confidence. Im sorry for having regrets. Im sorry, sometimes for being selfish. I cant tell you how much you means to me. If i were in your shoes too , i would have felt the same way. But this is too much. Did you remember when the first time you want me? Did you remember the times when you have your words , convincing me that how means our life would be like when we were meant together? All gone, because of my stupid fucking pms. 

I AM BACK ON BLOGGING PEOPLEEE!

Why you no unstan? Why you so stupid? Why no no beautiful? Heh , intro gua tu bajet gempak haha! hello people! Im back and active on blogging again! Actually , I am bored to death. Its raining out there. I can't sleep. I can't stop thinking about him. I am moving on now. But.. sadly, not much. Why you broke my heart? Enough. Its not im the only one who is hurting here. Everybody does. And he either as well.